Nia (Purpose)

Most days I sit and think of what I'm suppose to be
And if what I dreamt as a child is logical for me
Or my lifestyle
Good girl
gone wild
But who can blame me
Got the makings of a lady
But deep inside my heart
Is Filled with pain
And I don't think it will ever change
But , being that I'm a hopeful
Who knows what's in store
I heard the preacher say with God
You can have what you desire
...and more
Cool
But all that I want as of now
Is to know why I'm here
and all that's a blur,  could it be made clear
At 23 , I hope to find out soon
I'm getting older
And I'm over these days
When my mind wanders


I wonder..could today , be the day?